infertility warrior.

eric & i starting trying to conceive 2.5 years ago, right after we were married in 2013. our desire to start a family right away was so strong, but no amount of planning would have prepared us for the journey we were embarking upon to have children.

we have been diagnosed with unexplained infertility and recurrent pregnancy loss. we’ve endured extensive testing which has all come back completely normal. not having any answers has made our decisions moving forward at each step very difficult, wanting to try something new or different for fear of getting the same results, but having to weigh the emotional, physical and financial toll along the way. the heartbreak and disappointment we’ve experienced repetitively would be enough to break anyone down, and i’ve had my dark moments, but it has only brought us closer together in our marriage and we remain determined to be the parents we know we’re meant to be.

currently, only 15 states in the U.S. require infertility coverage by insurance and wisconsin is not one of them, leaving us paying 100% out of pocket for all testing and treatment. 1 in 8 couples has trouble getting pregnant or sustaining a pregnancy and 1 in 4 women will experience a miscarriage. we all know someone who has struggled with infertility or a loss.

it’s hard for me to attempt to summarize what we’ve been through over the past 2.5 years, so i’ll make future posts about specific parts of our journey and write a list on the highlights so far here:

  • 7 pregnancy losses
  • 74 monitoring appointments & consults
  • 3 letrozole cycles
  • 2 clomid cycles
  • 1 ivf egg retrieval
  • 1 fresh ivf transfer
  • 2 frozen ivf transfers
  • hundreds of self-administered injections
  • 1 hysterosalpingogram
  • 1 endometrial biopsy
  • 1 uterine artery flow ultrasound
  • 1 semen analysis {for hubs}
  • 1 sperm dna fragmentation assay {for hubs}
  • over 150 lab results
  • extensive chromosome & genetic testing
  • over 1,000 days of prenatal vitamins
  • tens of thousands of dollars invested in testing/treatment
  • 877 days of prayer


…and our journey continues.

xo Beck


4 thoughts on “infertility warrior.

  1. Always thinking of you girl! Welcome to the world of blogging! It’s a beautiful place, I’m so glad you’re here sharing your story! ❤

  2. Dont give up even when you feel you can’t go on any more with the heart aches. I have been in the same boat as were in not too long ago. I also was diagnosed with unexplained infertility and tried for 4 years and have done medications, surgery, intrauterine insemination to IVF and spent thousands of dollars and wanted to give up BUT I kept going and prayed harder each time my heart broke. My prayers were answered with twin girls who are 6 months old now. I will pray that soon one day you will have your prayers answered too!

  3. Glad you are blogging now lady! This road is so crazy and long and can go in a million different directions. I hope you get your prayers answered sooner than later and will be following along the whole time!

  4. Just found your blog and I’m following! Never stop believing! No one can stop you from being a mommy 😀

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